Have you ever been so looking forward to seeing someone that when they arrive late (even if its a good reason) your disappointment turns to anger, and then instead of being just plain ole happy to see them, you end up acting almost mad? No? Us neither (ha!). BUT, we worked it out and ended up being up talking on the couch until almost 2 am, noshing on the only non-diet food in the house…shells (hey-they were whole wheat!) and marinara sauce (nothing I can say to make that better)…So thanks for your well wishes…its good to have the Hubster in town.
Move over Paris Hilton, because we are headed for the Simple(r) Life!
I told Mom yesterday that I feel like I got stressed out two years ago and then I never relaxed. I do have a tendency to be anxious no matter what is going on… I mean, I could be lying on the beach and just feel my heart racing out of nowhere (dang genes!)…so imagine how I am when there are truly stressful events going on… (ok, now stop imagining that because I know it isn’t pretty.)
I can say I have learned a lot about myself in the past few years-most of it I have learned the hard(est) way. I know now that I really HATE debt and worrying about money and that feeling overwhelmed is a catalyst for all kinds of ugliness in my life. As Mom keeps telling me, “honey you are only 27…there’s so much time to rebuild”
And you know what? There is and we are.
Our house in Seattle has finally sold and the closing is Monday…Praise God! To have that off our minds is like getting 10 years of our life back. We didn’t make a cent on it- in fact, we are having to pay a little at closing- but in a climate where so many our losing their homes and credit, we are just thankful for the mercy of God that has allowed us to be able to sell it even at a loss.
So now we are looking toward the future and dreaming about new possibilities.. and let’s face it: we both want to be hippies! and live green! and eat raw! and run our vehicles on vegetable oil! and have little! and not be in debt! Somehow I think we both had those desires deep down in side of us and for some reason we had to go a little far the other way before we realized it…
Anyway, I wrote in a recent blog about the fact that we are considering buying a bus or an RV or something…so Cohen an I can travel with Shawn and be more a part of his everyday life. Sheri responded back and sent me the most amazing link for a blog written by a very hippy-ish family who is living on the road. You guys have to check out The Live Lightly Tour. Check out the photos of their home on wheels- not that is inspiring.
This morning Co woke up and was running around making the sign for “Daddy” and when he found him, he jumped into bed with him and started rolling all over Shawn and kissing him. I wanted to take a pic, but I thought I better not distract the love fest. I watched them thinking, ‘this is the stuff of life’. It was just REAL. I have missed much by letting my life get so entangled with these unnecessary stresses and things. And its snuffed out the simplest moments of joy that make life worth living.
I used to think my long-time friend, Sarah, was a little extreme because she and her husband chose to rent (even after having 2 kids) and they don’t own a TV or use credit or debit cards. We had a play date a few weeks ago and I couldn’t get over how joyful she is…how unruffled by life. There finances are simple…cash in envelopes and careful budgeting. She revels in the normalness of the life of being a mom and wife. And she’s radiant.
SIGN. ME. UP.
I want to rediscover how to do life without all of the trappings of money and stuff-we-just-think-we-need-right-now. I feel like I want to shed my tired old skin like a snake that can just leave it behind (hear: Sara Groves “Like A Skin”)
Pray for us as we balance our options and look to do the ministry of life together in a whole new way.
Look for the small wonders in your life today- drop a line and share them with us!
“Enchantment is a state of rapture and ecstasy in which the soul comes to the foreground, and the literal concerns of survival at least momentarily fade into the background… The soul has an absolute, unforgiving need for regular excursions into enchantment.”
“Religion is…an appreciation of the sacred and the holy in every aspect of life: nature, work, home, business, and other affairs…In a disenchanted world, for all of its concern for morals and social action, religion separates itself from everyday life and becomes obsessed with its own brand of belief and moral purity…The source of our modern discontentment is the loss of true religion.”
“There is no essential conflict between enchanted living and practical, productive activity; the can serve each other.”
“Enchantment is the ascendancy of the soul, a condition that allows us to connect, for the most part lovingly and intimately, with the world we inhabit and the people who make up our families and communities. Without it, we try rationally to forge those intimacies and make those connections, but our efforts are futile”